currently, i dont know what am i to do alrdy.
everybody around me is going crazy
thus,making me mad too.
relationship ok.
friends ; fuck
family ; fuck

other then baby, i dont know who else i can care for.
everyone makes me dont feel like caring anymore.
cause is like, i try all my best to advice that person
yet in the end the same thing happen over & over again
making me dont wanna care anymore.

today i decided to blog after such a long time.
wanting to tell friends what i feel here.

swan brother,
i seriously dont know what's wrong with you now.
you really changed to another person alrdy.
i feel like a stranger to you now.
i miss the times when we two have fun everywhere we go.
the time we pick the stupis merlion up.
& is like each time i walk out of my school
i will think of the times when you & mich wait for me outside school.
where's the clique which we use to have.
we are all so scattered now.
its not wrong to have new friends,
but sometimes dont over do things.
did you ever think whether you're really happy with them.
but just be alert of the people ard you.
they might not be like what you think they are.
backstabbers or blah blah blah.
i hope you can be yourself,
the real swan. [:
take care. im always here for you.
i promise.

cyn,
i dont really have much to say to you.
but i just hope that you mean everything you say.
cause you're really part of the reason why i dont feel like caring alrdy.
i keep telling you this & that.
giving you advices & stuffs.
you gave us your promise in the end the same things.
so it made me think hard
& i really dont wanna be a fool alrdy.
cause things these days are driving me crazy.
know your own limits when you're with HER.
you know that you cant control your feelings.
but know how to control.
mean what you say or i will really give up on you & HER d matter alrdy.

baobei,
im angry , im hot ,
wanting to beat her up.
but something stops me inside.
its you, i dont want cause of that fucker then we argue.
just cheer up ok.
what i say also no use one lah.
just hope you can listen to me once.
its not worth crying over that fucker.
its worthless, i rather you save the tears
& cry for me when i die.
it will be even more worth it.
just concentrate on your studies now ok!
i dotn wanna see any of us retain again.
its a important year for us ok!
we must graduate tgt ok.
cheer up alrdy.
dont smoke & drink so much alrdy.
i love you ok!
chun,bella,mich,everyone of us love you!
you dont need that person to love you.
we'll always be here for you.
especially me!

shannon,
think thru what you really want.
studies more important.
dont forget what i told you that time ok.
im always here. [:

family sucks,
they make me dont feel like going home.
it seriously sucks.

i dont know la.
i wanna study hard & when my studies are stable.
i wanna go find outside team & play netball.
might be taking piano lessons again.
do what i wanna do.
play hard & study hard.

everybody take care.[:
study hard.

baby,iloveyou<3
you're all i need [: