baobei.
can i just ask something now.
am i important to you?
why am i not feeling that i stand a place in your heart.
whenever dorcas they all say me you help them

when i say them you scold me.
what am i to you.
i know if you read this you will get offended but yes i cant take it anymore.
im sorry but to say i cant take it anymore already

fuck all those dreams lorhs.
i now dont even dare to go and sleep lahs.
keep dreaming that i will leave you all and i will die.
and everytime is i get stab by people.
i now so paranoid with things around me.
im so sensitive now.
im like going around and hugging friends saying tc and bye bye.
cause im scare that things will happen anytime anywhere.
i cant blame myself for being so sensitive nw lohs.
if you were me,having dreams like these everyday will make you scare too.
im not myself anymore.
i dont even know what im thinking nowadays.
i need YOU to secure me now.
i need YOU to make me not think so much.
i need YOU.
LONG AND BIG SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS~
i dont know what to do for amanda.
feeling so useless now.
im sorry baobei for not being able to do anyting.
say im fucking useless okaes. sighs.
i will think of a way for you.
dont worry okaes.
hurry cheer up okaes.
maybe all you need in your life is them and nt me.
having them in your life makes you happy.
so i think i shall try to get them back into your life so you can be happy.
baby say that even now someone give me hundred million
i still wun happy i think its true bahs..SIGHS! ):
i have no more position anymore. i sucks.

KAVEN SUCKS OKAES!
KAVEN IS USELESS!
KAVEN IS NOTHING IN EVERYONE'S HEART!
KAVEN CAN JOLLY WELL GO AND DIE!

fuck the dreams.
sorry baby for not being the perfect gf
sorry all my friends for not being the perfect friend
i cant help anyone at all.
people say that talking to me is like talking to the wall.
but did they ever think bout my feelings?
did they ever put themselves in my shoes?
all they know how to say is that i dont understand.
but did they try telling me their probs? NO!
forget it.everyone shall just go do whatever they want okaes.
where is everybody when i need someone.
ALL ARE MISSING!
all im left is with 2 or 3 person.
feeling so isolated in school ahs.
as if i dont belong there anymore.
being a crook dont mean anything.
i dont want to care bout all those critising things anymore.
everyone who dont understand the situation should just go and fuck off.
just leave me crying here now.
who will even bother except my baby.
is like the dream is quite true.
things and people are all drifting apart from me
its the same as people leaving me.
how i wish someone is fighting tmr
and im there and they can just accidentally beat me to death.
tired of leaving and people will say how can i leave them alone here.
sighs.
i dont know lahs.
im going crazy.
losing every nerve in me now.
leave me all alone if you want too.
im really in need of someone here for me now. )':
i feel like nothing in their eyes at all.
IM NOTHING! I SHOULD JUST FUCK OFF!