im crying the hell out of me now.
i dont know what's wrong with me now.
hearing a sad song now.
its driving me nuts by thinking bout the thing.

amanda.
dont get out of my life please.
i didnt mean anything when i said that too isabella.
do you know how important you are to me not.
i cant lose you.
i dont mind losing justine you know not.
its just that who can she turn too when she need someone.
like what you say.
you know me for so long.
are you going to let this thing effect us.
i feel so stupid quarrelling with you over this thing.
im feeling so bad now.
feel like dying now.
so i wun think so much.
tears dropped when i read your blog entry and read the testi you wrote for me.
my heart sunk and it break into a million pieces.
baobei.
i really cant lose you.
whenever you got problems.
i want to try to do something for you.
but there's nothing i can do.
if not you will ask dont care bout you.
do you know how i feel not.
you really got my heart sinking deep down to the bottomless pit aft reading the testi and entry.
my tears cant stop now.
just tinking of you walking away from me is driving me crazy.
i dont want to lose you
i really dont want.
baobei.
just now i in the counselling room.
i close my eyes.
and i saw our flashbacks.
the past when you smile at me and pinch me.
thinking bout things that we went thru together.
i rmb the first time you slap me.
i was angry with you.
but now how i wish you can slap me.
my tears is flooding my table now.
i can cry a bucket for you.
i never want to hurt you in the first place.
i never want to give up on you in the first place.
i never want you to walk out of my life in the first place.
the flashbacks in my mind now is really making my heart ache.
i can still see you smiling at me
i can still see you hitting me
i can still see the times when we talked on the fone.
i rmb everything that we said like that.
we went thru so so much.
you were always there for me when i need you.
im sorry baobei.
maybe now you dont even want me as a baobei.
i really hope you are reading this entry.
i want the past to come back.
i really need you in my life.
you will always be my baobei.
im really at a lost of words now.
i really feel so weak now.
friends are forever.
why must it come to a point where i mus make my decision.
baobei.
cant i just have you and her for the time being.
after she leave sch no more troubles will be left behind.
are you going to just throw me and you d friendship away.
she say you want beat her.
if you are to really beat her up.
i wun interfere in your thing.
like what elesia say to me.
she say is you and her de personally thing.
i got no rights to chap in this matter.
if you feel that what you are doing is right then go ahead.
i will still support you like before.
i really hope you will understand what im feeling now.
baobei.
miss you really miss you.love you..
tears are dropping non stop now.
im sorry for everything! ):