happy BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

baobei.
i was waiting for you to wish me happy birthday.
i thought that you didnt come to sch today.
my mood was low.
till i saw you then i started smiling.
i know im not happy at all.
but i must be happy cause i promise to do so.
i smiled and smiled.
i hope you are happy too.
i already made my choice.
even miss farhana tell me that if i feel you are more important and i shld choose you
so i made my choice.
and yes its you.
but i did tell her that even if i choose you now its too late.
sighs.
baobei.
reading your blog and hearing the song make me cry.
sorry for making you feel hurt.
im very sorry.
dont feel guilty okaes.
i will always wait for you to come back to my side.
i miss the times that we had togehter.
you pinching me.
you giving me that silly smile of yours.
you hitting me.
you pinching my cheeks.
you hearing my problems.
you talking to me on the fone.
everything bout the past.
sighs.
i hope things will change for the better.
dont disappoint me please.
i need you back in my life.
baobei.
im missing you.
miss the good old times.
everything is not too late
as i will be waiting for the day to come.
want me to be happy then come back.
im waiting. (:

mich baby!
thanks for that book.
i love you my sweet honey.
you made my day today.
i know that these few days im very cold towards you.
but i just needed time to cool my brain and mind..
now that i have come to a conclusion and answer.
i decided to choose amanda.
it's not a tought decision at all.
cause i know justine didnt make me feel so sad.
it was amanda.
sighs.
baby.
i will be your 24hr good good gf.
i love you my baby!
celebrate my birthday with me every year and every special occasion.
lets fill up the book together and walk thru everything togehter.
thanks for being there for me.
thanks for tolerating all of my nonsense.
i love you alot.
i miss you.
i realy appreciated all the great effort you did to make my birhtday a happy one.
the book was filled with our life since the day we were together.
i will cherish you my baby.
i will hold you tight and never let go.
be with me til the end of time
i hope all these will pass and amanda will come back to me.

thanks everybody who have been there for me these few days.
thanks for all the birthday wishes.
everybody be happy okaes.
dont worry bout me le.
im trying to be fine.
sighs.

bye everybody. (: