baby.
whard's wrong with you just now.
im now seriously tinking whether to change my attitude not.
i dun wish to be an irritant to you anymore.
you seem to be irritated by me jus now.
im s0rries if im the cause of it.
i think i should jus jolly well change my attitude and be serious.
our one month ish coming already.
im sick now.
the doctor say its jus the beginning only.
means im to fall even more sick as the days pass.
baby.
you are sick too.
i cared for you..
but who cared for me.
all i wanted was your attention.
whye are tings jus so different now.
do you noe how much i suffered.
i miss you till im going crazy.
and jus now when you raise your voice.
i was jus at a lost of words.
i know i seem to be angry jus now.
but the ting ish tat im jus at a lost of words.
baby.
whye i cant feel anyting now.
i really love you alot.
but whye ami nort feeling that you love me too.
baby.
as im typing.
tears are dropping.
whye have my days become so sad now.
i thought that after being with you.
i will be the happiest person
but i was wrong.
after school reopen.
my world became a nightmare to me.
i jus needed you right beside me to tell me everyting is okaes.
i jus wan you to tell me you love me alot.
but whye am i nort feeling the happiness in me.
each time you jus say a simple "i love you" to me.
im already smiling as if there's no tmr.
but baby.
i know that you love me.
i really know.
but why am i feeling like that now.
im so damn fucking afraid that you will leave me.
im serious that if you leave me.
i might jus cry to death.
baby.
tel me that you love me.
tel me that you cant live without me.
tell me you will neber leave me.
i jus needed you by my side now.
you are the first one to really really touch my heart.
nobody ever made me felt tis way.
tears are rolling down my cheeks now.
baby.
where'd you go when i need you.
i was tinking bout you till i didnt pay much attention to what im doing.
ii drop the plate and it cut my hand.
i was bleeding.
i didnt fel anyting.
all i was tinking was you.
i didnt even bother bout myself.
cause in my mind its all bout you.
the whole day i was pratically staring into space and tinking bout you.
i dunno whether you are feeling the same for me.
but i can only say that
baby.
i really love you and only you.
never have i being so iinto a relationship.
some of my past might be serious.
but i didnt felt like tis before.
its only after being with you den i know that i can live my life with you forever
baby.
i miss you alot!
how i wish i can see you now!
how i wish time can pass faster.
our one month ish coming.
even though its jus a one month.
im already very happy
cause at least there's a one month.
lets celebrate not only one month.
but one year and so on so fore.
baby.
i love you alot.
i love you more den you expected it to be.
i jus simply love looking into your eyes.
i jus love to hear you say you love me.
words are words.
actions are actions.
actions speaks louder den words.
baby.
im so sad now.
i need you now.
please secure my heart once again.
hold me tight and dun let go please.
i jus needed you.
no one else can make me feel secure except you.
baby.
i love you.
i miss you.
*cries* ):